Ugh I hate this feeling

I met a girl (she lived in Chicago) on the infertility board on the bump.com. She did IVF pretty much around same time as me. It didn't work so she did another one and got pregnant. She just had her baby girl Anya yesterday morning. I am so happy for her. She had IF issues and finally got pregnant so of course I am so happy for her. But then I have that nasty little jealousy monster. I hate him. But it's just not fair that I didn't get to hold Jack alive and bring him home with me. :-(