Blood, blood, and more blood

I went to the hematologist today. Dr. Citron (love the name) was a very nice guy. He took me into his office and got the whole story from me. My eyes did well up talking about Jack but I didn't cry like I usually do talking about him. The doctor said that because of my family history and because of my medical history, he doesn't think there will be any clotting diseases but he did a screen for them anyway. I feel a little relieved but I won't feel completely relieved until I know the results. If I find out that I killed Jack, and that I might possibly harm a future baby, I will be devestated.