I'm sitting here in tears that won't stop. I feel like my wound was ripped open again. People will tell me it's not my fault and that if I knew I would have done something about it. And I know that. But if it's the case, it's easier said than done. I have to blame myself. I have to point the finger. I will try to be easy on myself. I will. But right now, all I can think of is the stress of what the tests will tell me.
Tears continue.....
Please don't blame yourself dear Krysia, you have done NOTHING wrong.If you want to point a finger point it at the doctor who was testing you during the pregnancy and ask him,if he thought something was wrong,why did he not bring Baby Jack into the world one week earlier.. ,but not to yourself.To fall into a depression doesn't do any one any good,not Baby Jack,Not Sean and not yourself.You are grieving,and you will continue to do so for as long as you need,there is no time limit of this pain you are going thru.I feel for you,so much.I read your blogs to see how you are doing,sometimes I think I should not text you because maybe you get tired of me asking how you are...But I am praying for you every day...I wish there was a way to make you feel a little better.xxx chr
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