New journey

I am missing Jack and will always, always miss him. He will never, ever be replaced. I feel like I have to keep justifying that to myself and others. I don't think I'll ever be able to help that. But here we are again... Trying to stay healthy, keeping track of a calendar, peeing on a stick to see if I'm ovulating. I can't believe I'm back here. I did it for about a year and a half before Jack and now I have to do it again. Will it even happen for us? Will the result of all this be a take home baby?? I just can't believe I have to do this allllllll over again.