That feeling

The feeling of losing my baby girl is haunting me. I have serious feeling of what if it happens again. I can't help it. Sean says it won't happen. But I know he's just saying that for my benefit and I know he is probably just as scared and nervous. Seriously. Think about it. It can happen again and I will be heart broken alllllll over again. What do I do if it happens again? How do I live after that? I just want to know everything will be ok. I wish I could see the future. 3 more months. Please, time, go by faster.