Poster child

I am thankful for kindness and sympathy. It gets me through my darkest moments. And it's one of the reasons I am still here. Please don't think I take that for granted. However, I feel like sometimes people look at me like the poster child for unhealthy, sick, or problems with their children. It's so hard for me to express this frustration and I'm doing it just to vent. Not to show ungratefulness in any way. When you think of me when you are scared in your pregnancy or when something may be wrong with your baby, you think "I'm so grateful that I get to have my baby" or "I can thank God that I have my children that surround me". Well, yes. Good for you. But not me. My son is dead and I don't have him with me.