Real

I have 10 weeks to go. It doesn't seem real to me that I will have a baby to hold and take home with me. I really feel like I am going to lose my baby girl and only experience the connection I have with her now. I do not feel like I will feel that mother daughter connection ever. I love my pregnancy and I love the baby that is growing inside of me. But I feel that's as far as this will go. Again. Do I hope that's not true? Of course. Do I feel attached to the baby that is growing and moving in me? Very much so. I just can't yet picture myself hearing her scream coming out and holding a breathing, living baby. I picture myself losing another baby. We can only hope that will not happen....