Alone, festering in sadness and tears. Awaiting the dreaded day. My son should be here with me. Instead, I'm having a breakdown because my son is dead. I should be celebrating my life as a mother. Instead, I am so scared that I will completely lose it on mother's day because I don't feel like a mother. I should be excited about the beautiful baby that's developing inside of me. Instead, I have a fear that I will lose another child.
I can't wait for this weekend to be over. I can't wait for August. I can't wait to have a real, genuine smile again. I can't wait for true happiness. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm scared. These are emotions that run me into the ground.
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