Jinx

I don't want to jinx things, but so far these past few days, I've been doing ok. Jack is of course constantly on my mind and every little thing reminds me of him. But I'm doing my best to look forward. But then I say those words and I think to myself, STOP jinxing things!!! I call my baby girl by her name and make it real but then I think I should not do that. Ugh, I did not want to get to this point of attachment. I'm so scared... At least June is around the corner and by the end of June I'll be seeing her every week. Please, please, please let everything be ok.