Nerves

I'm starting to get nervous about Monday. I really don't know what to expect when it comes to my reaction. I'm scared if it's a boy that I'll cry because it should be Jack. I'm scared that if it's a girl, I'll be sad because I won't get to have the boy I wanted to have. I have so many mixed emotions, I can barely contain them. All I know is that I will be happy when I know this baby is safe. But until then, the nerves just overtake every other feeling. This pregnancy is hard. Very hard.