5 months

5 months ago was the worst day of my life. I lost my son who I loved before I met. I lost the baby that I had been waiting years for. I lost my world. I should be holding a 5 month old baby right now instead of waking up and crying because I can't believe it's been 5 months. Sean should be playing with his son instead of the dogs. I should be going into his room and holding him and kissing him. Instead, all we have is a memory and a picture. I can't believe it's been 5 months......