Memories

I remember when I couldn't breathe because the tears were so strong. I remember when people asking me how I am wanted me to scream "how do you think I am?" in anger. I remember thinking my life was over. My heart still has the aching feeling that is indescribable but now, it's just not constant. Now when people ask how I am, I answer "ok". I can't get myself to say anything better than ok. I'm not good, I'm not great, in just ok. And I feel like I will be that for the rest of my life. Because even though I am in love, I have an amazing daughter, and I have a future to look forward to, I dealt with a terrible experience and it broke me. I will forever be broken but my life is not over.