Now

Last year and even a few months ago, I never thought I would see myself here. I never thought I would smile again. I never thought I could feel happy. I never thought I could even smile for a picture. I think about Jack every single day. There has not been one day when his name did not cross my mind. The pain is still there and the sadness won't go away. But I never thought I would be able to say that it actually has become bearable. Maybe it's because I have Samantha to help make me smile or the fact that Sean is around to pick me up. Whatever the case, I never thought I would be here.