Another day... Without Jack

I sit on the couch and think about him and the tears flow and do not stop. I am so sad without him. Sean asks me to talk to him and tell him what's wrong (other than the obvious) but I have no answer. I'm just very sad and I can not stop crying. Hormones can't be helping either. I just want my son. Why is that so hard for the world to understand? Why do I not get to have him in my life? Why is this my life now? I feel so alone and empty.