My flight is booked. I clicked "reserve this flight" in tears. Samantha woke up when I was done and I picked her up as she smiled at me, hugged her, and cried and cried. I don't know how I'm going to leave her. My sister and Sean kept telling me it will be ok, it will be fast. I know that. But I'm still freaking out. It's so cliche to say, but one really does not understand the emotions a mother feels until they have become one. I am so in love with my daughter and I can't describe how it feels. I am so panicked about leaving her but I'm trying not to be dramatic about it. However it's so hard and I can't explain the irrational fears I'm feeling and I can't help but have them.
Wish me luck!
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