What I want

I wish I could be naive and happy go lucky about this pregnancy. I AM happy. I AM relieved. But I don't want to be scared and worried all the time. I know this baby deserves as much love and attention as Jack got, but I'm so scared to get attached. I only hope Jack is watching and making sure everything will be ok. I look back on the dream I had and think about Jack leading his little sister around. I hope that means that he's watching and making sure she (or he) will be ok. Please, baby, stick and be our rainbow baby.