A funk

Feeling rather low today. I'm trying to look forward but all I do is think of what could have been. Or how things might be. I look into Jack's room and see it empty and just wish that he was here. But then I think of how a new baby might be in there in about 6 months and wonder when I should move my shrine to Jack. All I want is for Jack to be here. I wish that wasn't too much to ask. I would also like time to fast forward so I know if this baby will be coming home with us or not.