Can't picture it

4 days to go. I can't believe it. I'm hoping the rest of the days go by fast but I doubt they will. I still can't picture Sean and me holding a live baby. It just doesn't come to mind. Sean says he feels she will be coming home with us. I just feel like it'll all come to a sudden end again. I hope I'm wrong. I just want to be able to hold my crying baby girl, I want to be able to feed her, rock her, and love her and hear and see her breathe. That's all I want.