10 Months yet 5 days

It's been 10 months since we said goodbye to Jack. The hardest day I will ever experience. I look at his picture and wish so badly that he was here with us. Wishes don't come true. But then a the same time, it's 5 days till we meet Sam. Or at least hopefully meet Sam. I want time to slow down and go back to 10 months ago but then I want it to speed up the 5 days so I can meet my daughter. What a way to be pulled back and forth.