Time

9 weeks to go. I can't believe it. Not only is time passing so fast without Jack, but time towards knowing if I will meet Samantha is getting closer and closer. I still wish it was sooner so I could know if I will be able to hold my daughter alive. Soon I'll be monitored weekly. I guess that gives me some sort of comfort. Plus she moves for me and I keep track of that. But I still won't know nor will I feel safe when she is crying in my arms. Then the paranoia at home will set in. It's never ending.