Babies

As I babysit and hold a baby boy, the only thought that comes to my mind is why I can't be holding Jack. I wish so badly that I could hold him and smell him and touch him and give him kisses. I want to be able to hear him cry and see him smile. I am doing ok with the babysitting. But it's just hard knowing that I should have my baby boy with me. He should be the baby I am holding and loving. He should be the baby I am picking up when he starts crying. It's just so sad that I can't have my son with me. I just hope my daughter makes it.