First night alone

First night alone and I must say its not very successful so far... Sleep is hard. All I hear is silence. All I think about is how alone I feel and how I should have an almost 4 month old to cuddle with while daddy is gone. I tell Sean goodnight and tell him to have fun. I hear his guilt for leaving. It's ok. The world must go on. It's just so different now. I'm not the same person. I am so much more fragile.
Let's try to get some sleep....