Ugh Mother's Day

Another bittersweet Mother's Day is upon us. It's been crappy. I've cried. I'm hurting. And all I can do is imagine what it would be like if Jack was here. I imagine a blonde, curly haired boy. I imagine him to be tall. I imagine him to be active and loud. I imagine him running to me and giving me hugs and kisses. I imagine him watching his Daddy work in the garage. I imagine him giving me my Mother's Day kisses today. But then I imagine a life without Samantha and I cry once again. And I try to imagine a world with the both of them in it. What a paradise that would be. Big brother and little sister running around. Big brother watching over his little sister. Jack and Sam. My beautiful children.