Valentine's Day

My husband is not always one to buy me flowers and chocolates and cards even on holidays like Valentine's Day. Yeah I know it's not a big deal but I think every girl wants and even deserves a little something for birthdays and holidays. 

Well this year, he got me flowers, chocolates, and two cards; one from him and one from Samantha. The one from Samantha was the best of course. Not only do I get to say I get a card "from" my daughter, but I was able to get a peak into Sean's mind about what he thinks of me as a mother. And it made me feel proud and loved. :-)

 

And yet again...

We really can not catch a break in our little family. A week ago, Sean was in the emergency for kidney stones that he has yet to pass. And yesterday evening we rushed to the ER with Samantha because she fell off her slide (a SMALL slide at that) and landed on her arm in a bad way. After MANY X-rays to make sure to get the perfect picture of her elbow, it turns out Samantha broke her arm. My 18 month old daughter now has a bright pink cast on her left arm. Her screams after her fall killed me, her screams at the hospital made me sob. All I did was ask Jack to watch over his baby sister and make sure she was ok. When they said possible surgery, I said to Jack "please not that". Nurses and technicians looked at me crying and were concerned because they had to make her suffer by moving her around for the X-rays. I told them I know they had to, but her cries KILLED me and made me just let tears roll. Sean was amazing and held onto her the entire time helping them with the positions.

I can NOT believe it. I can NOT believe my baby girl has to suffer for 3 weeks in a cast. All I want to do is cry. All I want to do is hold her and tell her it will be ok. All I want to do is turn back time and not take her outside for that one more time before giving her a bath. All I want to do is take the pain away from her and put it on myself.

I just want to go on and not have to have hospital visits or illnesses or deaths. I want some GOOD to continue in my life.

My amazing daughter

I would like to rave about the awesomeness of my daughter. She truly is a gift and a miracle and I am so proud of her. Sean and I can honestly already say we have an intelligent, gifted daughter. Sure I may be biased, but I can see it and I can feel it. She picks up words daily. She follows routine and procedure fluidly. And she recognizes things easily. She tries to sing her ABC's and she already takes part in the E I E I O part of Old McDonald. When I open the dishwasher, she rushes over to help me. And oh does she try so hard to help! She pulls out the silverware and opens the proper drawer and puts them in. They may not go in the right place, but they're in the correct drawer. She pulls out whatever she can and hands it to me. When it's bed time, she knows when to go to brush her teeth (I sing our little "brusha brusha" song). She is such a big girl now, she stands on a stool all on her own and opens her mouth as I brush her teeth at the sink. She then goes straight to her bedroom and awaits our nightly procedure. She even takes part by pressing her seahorse that lights up. My daughter is amazing. I tell her that everyday. She is growing up so fast and I am in awe each day at the new things she shows us.

We are so lucky to have such an easy going daughter who sleeps through the night. We are so lucky to have such a smart daughter that I know will only make us more proud as she grows up. We are so lucky to have a daughter that enjoys doing the things we enjoy to do. I am so grateful for Samantha.